Today is a surprise day off for me. It’s been a long haul the past few weeks and, well, I love surprises (especially the day off kind)! After waking up, brewing the coffee, and nestling in on the new couch, I was able to rest in the peace of the morning for approximately one minute. Shortly after the sixty one second mark my mind began to wander ahead…
In less than 100 days, I will graduate from this university and I’ll be on my own. Free to live anywhere I want. Free to begin paying off the incredible amount of debt I’ve accrued. Free to begin a new adventure. I’ll have to make a car payment in there somehow. Oh and then there’s the whole “career” gig. Eating. I should probably find a way to eat…
Anyways, you can see where this is going. Hello overwhelmed and suffocating anxious feeling. You know those moments where you take a second to stop and look ahead? Too far ahead? And you suddenly feel incredibly small and unorganized? Yes, well, that is what my peaceful moment morphed into.
Luckily for me, there is a great big God out there and right here who brought me back to this moment on the couch with my chipped $1.37 coffee cup and clearance slippers. It is here that He reminded me of Abram.
“The Lord had said to Abram, “Leave your country, your people, and your father’s household and go to the land I will show you. ‘I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you.’ So Abram left, as the Lord had told him…”
-Genesis 12:1-4
So Abram left. “Just go.” God said, and he went.
I don’t know about you but I don’t always here an audible voice with God. Sometimes it’s a feeling. Sometimes it’s a whisper. More often than not, it’s His word rushing back to the forefront of my mind. Lately, He’s been pretty audible in my surroundings; present, past, and future. I keep looking back and seeing God in all the provisions and blessings, the difficulty and the struggle. I look at the now and I can hear Him preparing me in my final days as a student. I can hear Him in the great unknown of my future, calling me into deeper faith.
I bet when Abram heard the call of God he might have felt the same way. Looking back, looking forward, I wonder if he was overwhelmed with the possibility and the impossibility. No cell phones, calendars, google maps, online banking accounts, or real estate agents. He took all he had within him and the little around him, and he went. In faith, he just went. Only one plan; go.
God didn’t ask Abram to have it all figured out. He didn’t expect him to be ready for what was next in the moment he asked him to go. He just expected him to go. For you and me, this may not look like packing up all your belongings and traveling to a physical far away land. But it might mean stepping out on a limb and applying for that job or grad school you’ve been thinking about. Maybe you need to take a trip down memory lane and make peace with some old wounds. Maybe “going” is getting up the next morning and making breakfast for your kids. I don’t know where God is calling you too but if you’re like me, there may be an air of unknown about it.
God said, “just go”. Not, “get your life together, figure out where it is that I am telling you to go, secure the funds, stable the nerves, saddle up and go.” No. In faith, in blind faith, just go. In trust, shaky trust, just go. With all your hope, go.
So, with chipped coffee mug in hand, clearance slippers on foot, and fragile faith at heart. I’ll go. I’ll apply for that random job I’m not sure I’ll get. I’ll reach out and have that difficult conversation. I’ll be human and make mistakes because that’s what “go” means. It means doing something, anything sometimes, just to try and follow after a Sovereign God whose love for you could swallow the entire universe. Don’t you want to go after that love? Go after that promise? Go after the very being of God? Just go! I’ll meet you there!
ToBeKT 